durgga ; oh man, i think i havent cried so much in one day. serious. i really dont wanna write now but no other way to get rid of the confusion and simple fucked up - ness. firstly, i had to go with my cousin out as it is her last day in spore before she go us. instead of going to send sabahat off at the airport, i was alr quite pissed. then it turns out my cousin has one whole shopping list, and she has to go bukit merah ntuc watsons bookshop, then ps, then finally far east. and i only had 30 mins left to buy my stuff. how the hell am i supposed to? and we came from the carpark at the back not through the front so i had trouble finding the shops. and she kept rushing me, i got pissed and left. even though dad gave me a chance to go back. i felt damn cheated, cos she said lets do shopping together. instead i became like her part time assistant. still that was not the end. dad picked me from tution, then hazel sms me lah. was telling me abt diana's haircut and i just sighed cos i was pissed off at general life. the following is the extreme brief version of a thirty min lecture. father thought i was so fucking obsessed ( yes, he used fucking ) with what people think. i was like what the fuck is wrong with buying a new shirt? just because, i want sth new for myself doesnt mean its cos of what my friends think. then he was like durgga, just dont tell me its not cos of your friend's influence, i was once your age. im like thinking hello you're like what age and you're a guy pls, this is like 2000 alr for god's sake. and now mother has added to the cold glares because i said no to sending my cousin off. and mother thinks that its my fault that i couldnt choose my clothes fast enough.